Mar. 3 – journal entry

Sitting with Harry and Denise, I was listening to them speak to being in a place of contentment. Not complacent, yet also not looking to devote their time at present to healing… As they feel in a good place at the moment AND both are single. The lesson? I am there, I just needed to realize it AND it is time to integrate all that I have learned.

Mar. 4 – journal entry

Struggling with this group mentality. Feeling like I don’t fit in. Not a new story forme. It feels like no one cares about what I have to say. What I have recognized from this particular set of interactions though is that some people are just not my people. And some are. But the story I tell tends to be that I don’t belong in most groups that I run in… This is why I call myself a Weirdo…. This is why I am short on close friends, I have but a few. And I could look at this differently as well, it doesn’t have to be a bad thing…. And I don’t think I am wrongabout how I feel. I want to be close with peeps and it just doesn’t vibe. I guess I just keep looking for my tribe without judgement.

Later insight to this: what I realized is, I already have people. Why do I need to go across the world to find more? Love who and what I have with the ones in my life now! Appreciate them and stop trying to find more, I do already have so much.